You know sometimes I wonder,
if I am doing a good job as a stay at home dad.

I must admit, this is the hardest job I have ever done in my life.
I got to hand it to all the mothers of this world.
How do you guys manage to do it all?
Unbelievable.

I know I am over the “EGO thing”,
about staying at home and not being able to provide for my family.
I say this because I dare any male out there to try and be a mother for a day.

It’s funny how we have this double standard thing,
that when women go out and work, and do basically any man can do,
they are being cheered.
But when Men stay at home and do what women do at home,
It’s the exact opposite.

It truly is a full time job,
and it’s a job that you can’t quit.

I thought it was just changing diapers,
and bottle feeding when I signed up.
But Nooooooo..
There is so much more.

And it’s quite amazing when the day is over,
And when I say Over, that is “hoping Tyler would not wake up
at 3 in the morning kinda Over”.
When all is done quiet and peaceful,
When you finally have time for yourself,
You have no energy left.
I’m serious.

I update this site at the end of the day, (when I can)
because I have no one to talk to, Tracy works at night.
I might explode if I don’t.

Also, now that Tyler can crawl,
He is so mobile, he will not stay in one place.
So I have to be on extra alert mode.
His teeth are also coming out,
so he is just not having a good time.

I also read some parenting articles from “American Baby” Magazine,
and sometimes the more I read it,
the more I feel scared of not doing a good job.

Plus there are so many things that they want you to do
to your baby that I am afraid that I will not be able to do them all.
And if I didn’t, I fear something would go wrong with my child.

They even have suggestions on how to decipher your child’s cries.
So, there I was, using my ear for tone and music,
listening to Tyler’s diverse sounds.
And I still end up going with my gut instinct.
(Thankfully, I am usually right.)
It’s just frustrating sometimes when
you can’t figure out whats wrong with them.

A good friend of mine, Tammy V., once told me,
“Remember always that Tyler can not speak yet,
and his only way to tell you something is to cry”

That helped me a lot. (thanks Tam)

Thank you also to My Mom, and Tracy’s Mom,
for all the help and advice we get.
It’s just great knowing that I can call any of you anytime.

Thanks to my son, Tyler Austin,
for teaching me about myself.
you are all worth it son.
I love you very much.

And thanks to Tracy,
for telling me that I am doing a good job,
and for driving an hour and a half,
to and from work, just for the betterment of our future.

Thanks to the Lord up on high,
for the strength and patience,

And I also would like to thank the Academy for this little drama speech.
Thank you!!!

*Raises trophy* as crowd cheers.
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