It’s funny while I was writing that previous post,
I was thinking of how I was texting and messaging
my friends and loved ones in the Philippines.
Making sure they were alright.

Of course, I have to sweep through my phone address book
to see who I can contact and ask them how they were doing.
Despite the fact that it was a little scary what reply I would get
or if I would get one at all.
You can never know how bad the situation is.
Or was.

Luckily, most of them are alright.

I said it was funny when I was writing that because,
I noticed how few entries on my address book
that are still in the Philippines.
There’s not much left.

My family and friends who are still there,
who I still actively get in touch with,
has become lesser and lesser in the last few years.

I actually got a little sad.

I have lost contact with a lot of them.
Some, not by choice,
but by circumstances.

Some of them have their own families, of course.
And that pretty much became their new lives.

Others have changed their contact information
and we just lost communication over the years.

I have very dear friends who have passed away.
But I still think about them quite often.

Oh, and I also have former friends
who chose not to have anything to do with me.
I don’t know.
I think I am a nice guy, and very friendly.
But some of them think I am not good enough.
Or not worthy enough to really “get to know.”
So there was no point in keeping their info on my list.
I don’t think mine is on theirs either.

But that wasn’t my point.
My point was in “friendship,”
only the ones who are true stay with you
your whole life.

And I am at the point in my life
where this is becoming true.

Anyone who I called or messaged today,
wondering if they’re doing alright,
with the current situation in the Philippines,
are the ones who I really cared for.
The ones who truly matter to me.
Because I am to them too.

I am always saddened by losing friends.
But this is where you realize the difference
between (true) friends
and acquaintances.

“Some people in your life truly care.
Most of them are just curious.”