As you may have noticed,
I added the Facebook “Like” button, on the individual posts.

Let’s see if that would be a good start to integrate this site to
those social networking pages.

I’m testing it for now.
I am not sure if it’ll last.
I already took out the twitter sidebar.

It won’t show on the front page. (**update** – it now does)
It has to be on the actual post.
Man, I am really sucking on this web maintenance gig.

I’m trying to get ideas on making this site grow.
And I am out of them.

No inspiration whatsoever.

Tomorrow marks the historic transition
from Analog to Digital TV Broadcast.

I don’t think anyone needs to be reminded of it
since the government and the media pretty much
shoved it into our brains that we need to be ready for this new conspiracy.

I mean, come on.
The only ones that are really going to be affected are those who still use
the old Over-The-Air antenna reception that you get for free.
(This means you, Grandma.)

They don’t like that.
They do not like anyone getting anything for free.
And they made sure each and every member of your household knows
about the transition and how horrible it is if they get left behind.

My God, what are they so afraid of?
Are they afraid that if people don’t get to watch their TV Programs,
they might do something else… like
Go outside?
See other people?
Or worse,
Read a book?

Turning pages, rather than switching channels?
Ugh!
The horror!

Me?
Heck yeah, I’m ready.
It’s the NBA playoffs!
I have to have that in Digital!

I just watched one of the most simple,
most raw,
most rockin’ guitar DVD ever!

Space Ship One
by Paul Gilbert.

Paul has been one of my favourite
guitar players of all time.

His blazing fast licks and gutbucket riffs
always make me want to smash my head into a wall.

But I won’t do that because I suck at fixing drywall
and I have no time to repaint.

So I’ll just try to play more songs,
And play a lot of ROCK!

I don’t care if people listen to it or not.

I just do it for you, Damien.
It’s all for you!

You know sometimes I get so depressed.
It’s just sometimes I do not think I can handle it all.

There is so much going on that I wish
everything would just end.

That’s normal right?
After all, I am just human.

Who do I turn to?
No one.

I write my thoughts here on this little journal,
because, like I have said,
some of my thoughts need to be unloaded from time to time.
My mind can only hold so much.

I try to pray at night,
but most of the time,
I am so exhausted, that I end up falling asleep,
right after “Dear Lord.”

I know we are being tested
that’s why we encounter all our problems.

Funny how you spend your life,
figuring out solutions to all of them.

It never ends,

Work,
Pay the bills,
Clean the house,
Raise your kids,
Work,
Pay the bills,
Do we have enough?,
Work,
No we don’t,
Pay the bills,
We’re out of food,
Work,
Pay this and that,
May back hurts,
Car repairs,
Work,
Rent is due,
Work,
Bills again,
.. and to top it off,
health problems.

You just can’t have it easy huh?
No. You can’t.

Sometimes I think I get tested so much that I am wondering,
if I am at least passing.
If not, should I still go on?

Tracy gives me words of encouragement,
and she always tell me,

“You are not the general manager of the universe.”
“Your problems are just a tiny spec on what the real deal is in this world.”
“And this too, shall pass.”

You know I never really paid attention to what she said,
until I saw this.

–> Powers of ten.

Can you imagine where we stand in the whole vastness of things?
Amazing huh?

It’s also amazing that,
the universe is so huge,
and humans are just a tiny spec of dirt.
But our Lord God still prefers us, and looks after us
before everything else.

Wow.

In conclusion,
I may be bitter, depressed, down and miserable
because of my problems and whatever pulls my chain,
I know I have the right to be, because they are mine.
And the only one who can help me is ME.

But.

I also know that,
I will never be given anything that I could not handle.

And if the time comes when I am overwhelmed,
I would just sit back, and let my God do the driving.

As long as I get to work the stereo.