September 3,

As you can see..

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..or you might have seen and noticed,
that I have not done any updates on this site in a while.
And I have disabled all of the Music in here too.

It’s not that I have nothing to update and say,
I just took a break from everything.

Well, not everything.
Just this site.

Why?
It has betrayed me.

Let me explain.

As you know, I have worked on this site for a very long time now.
I have spent countless hours re-modeling the design,
writing and re-writing the posts,
rehearsing, playing and recording all the music,
and not to mention the maintenance this site needs.
I have tried my best to keep my stuff how I want them.

Then you see, not too long ago,
I have detected that my files and codes were tampered with.
All my intrusion logs showed unauthorized access on one directory.

Nothing major really.
Someone was just able to decipher my codings and was able to have access to some of my files.
Luckily, no damage has been done.

But ever since then, I seem to have lost interest in this site.
I can’t shake the thought of some other person
meddling with what I hold most dear.
I can’t get rid of the feeling that it is now contaminated and dirty.

I know it’s not this site’s fault.
I am sure it didn’t want to give itself out in the open.
Plus it was just a matter of time
that it’ll fall into the hands of people with dreadful intent.

I just felt like I was betrayed.

So, as I try to revisit everything in here.
Assessing every single thing that will make me want to continue
maintaining my music relationship with this site.

We’ll see how it goes eh?

Look at the size of that!

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It’s bigger than the whole State of Florida.
Quite a monster,
quite a threat,
and the State will get quite a beating.

It will hit Florida so hard, it will see tomorrow, today!

Once the mayor says, get out and evacuate,
make no mistake,
I will pick up my butt
and we are out of here faster than a pizza at a weight watcher’s convention!

Damaging wind gusts,
Tornadic situations,
Destructive floods,
these are threats that I am in no mood to face.

But those are not the biggest threat to me.
The biggest dilemma that we’re facing right now is,

“The temptation of not to eat all our food supply.”

These “ready-to-eat”, “non-perishable” foodstuff is calling my name
everytime the news does its hourly storm update.

The hurricane better come soon,
because my stock supplies are running low.

Stupid Hurricane.

He only wants to play?

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We went to the Doctor’s again.
Because Tyler has these rashes all over his body.
Though on a good note,
his fever is gone, and he is pretty much back to his normal playful self.

So, when we got there,
there was this kid and his Mother by the waiting area.
The kid was playing with the toys and the Mother was reading the magazines.

As Tracy and Tyler sat down,
Tyler noticed the kid and smiled at him.
That’s how sweet my son is.
He is always happy.
Always acknowledges everyone with a smile.

Then as I was about to sit down,
That other kid, came up to to Tyler,
leaned over at him and screamed loud.
Loud enough to scare my son.
Then as I was about to say something,
this kid hit Tyler on his head.
I mean, right smack on the side of it.

So, I was like, “What the hell?”
Then his Mother, who was talking to her kid in French,
took the kid away from Tyler,
and I picked my son up, crying.
My poor son.
All he did was smile at somebody.

Then the Mother said,
“He only just wants to play.”

I said, “Play?,
He hit him on the head!!
What kind of a play is that?”

I stood there, the kid looked up at me,
listening to his Mother, all scared.
I think because he knew that I was pissed and staring at him too.

I was trying to make eye contact with the Mother,
but she won’t look at me.
She picked up their stuff and left.
they left without even seeing the Doctor.

What did I do?
I followed them.
The lady was French, and I didn’t know what to say.
Luckily, I worked with two amazing French people, Sylvain and Ray,
that I understand some of it.

So, what did I say?
Since she was walking away fast, and I think she knew I was still staring at her.
I just said,
“You need to control your kid, Tabarnak!”
(I should have learned more French, Sly.)

I was so mad, the nurses at the office were staring at me.

Let me clear something up though.
I was not mad at the kid.
He was just a kid.
He only does what he was taught or what they see.

I was mad at the mother.
Firstly, As a parent, you know how your kid acts around other people or kids.
I am sure this was not the first time it happened,
and she should have been more aware or cautious of what her kid would do.

Secondly, the kid was not alone.
So he feels comfortable enough to hit some other kid,
while his parents are around him.
That is just not right.

and Thirdly,
Not even a single word of “Sorry”
Neither in English nor in French.
(I understand enough French to figure out “I’m sorry”)

I guess, since Tyler was the one who got hurt,
we were supposed to assume and understand that they were sorry?
What if they were not?
What if the lady comes home to her Husband (or partner)
and says..
“Hey! Our kid smacked someone again upside the head.
Good thing I pulled him right away before he hurt his hand.”

Another thing I would like to add.
One of the things that pisses me the most,
is being hit on the head.
I hate it.
I really hate it.
Even if it was just a playful joke.
I always lose my temper.
Always.
To me, being hit on the head is an insult.
Did I mention that I hate it?

So, it’s another one of those,
“You-know-what-to-do, but-you-just-can’t-do-it” kinda situations.
God, I love those.

Anyway.
The Doctor saw Tyler
and he said that the rashes are a sign of the virus getting out of him.
He said that Tyler is getting well.
That’s good.
Now I can be a little less worried.

All I hope now is for Tyler not to remember
his first taste of senseless violence.